Over the past little while my testimony of everything has been tested greatly. I would venture to say that I have been going through what they call "The Refiners Fire." The scriptures teach "Ye cannot behold with your natural aeyes, for the present time, the design of your God concerning those things which shall come hereafter, and the bglory which shall follow after much tribulation. For after much atribulation come the bblessings. Wherefore the day cometh that ye shall be ccrowned with much dglory; the hour is not yet, but is nigh at hand." (http://lds.org/scriptures/dc-testament/dc/58.3?lang=eng#2) However, after much testing and tribulation I have felt overly compensated and blessed by the Lord. I wish to share in appropriate detail about an experience I had two days ago at a missionary meeting called "Zone Conference" (it's where a large group of missionaries gather together and receive instruction on how to better serve the Lord). As a matter of fact, I did not see this experience coming at all. This experience brought me back to a remembrance of my personal conversion to the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
A fellow missionary gave a training in which he invited us to ponder and think about the most powerful spiritual experience in our life. I thought back to how I became converted to this Gospel. To give some brief background: I was born and raised within this church and always stayed active. However, during my youth I did not live the standards that the church has set forth. I merely put on a show and a mirage for people. This continued until after I graduated High School. There came points where I felt very low, miserable, and discouraged about who I really was and what I really was doing. I decided to seek the available help provided in the church for those who need repentance. As I sought help from leaders and other brothers in the church who struggled as I did, change began to happen and it still is one day at a time! That I testify is true!!!
During zone conference many instances flashed through my mind of when I felt the power of Jesus Christ rest upon me and my fellow brothers in the church as we all were striving to change our rebellious ways. Never in my life had I felt the Savior's love in this way! I knew that He was there beckoning me and my fellow brothers to change and more importantly extending a merciful arm to us. The following scripture describes what happened two days ago: "...they...did shed tears of joy because of the multitude of his tender mercies over them" (http://lds.org/scriptures/bofm/ether/6.12?lang=eng#11). I was blessed by the Lord to "shed tears of joy" in remembrance of the tender mercies that He has blessed me with!!! I have a testimony of repentance and the Atonement of Jesus Christ!!! It has changed who I am today! I am thankful to be forgiven of past sins!! I know that the Savior will restore your peace as you come unto him!! I know that He lives and pray that something from this post would be of benefit to you!